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3.30 am...

everyone sleeping like pig...
i think am the only one sitting there n write blog ba..
so long did not update dy..
the reason i suddenly update my blog is becoz i duno i still can express my feeling to who...haiz..

everyone is bz with their life, am the only one stay at home waiting for job and wasting my time...
all my classmate get their internship job dy..me still at home rest rest rest..

i duno i still can continue my studies or not..coz i really getting less n less passion on design dy..
go interview for my internship job really make me feel very tired...
i think i really dun hav the talent on design..
i feel so suck now...haiz....many of my friend get graduate already...
i still there study diploma only...

really wish tat i can continue my degree...but i think my dream cant come true ba.....
coz my family financial really cant support me.. i did not blame my parent..i just blame my life n myself..

i just duno y i just cant stop study. i suppose go work n make my family life better...haiz
since small i really very jealous others people life.. y they can be so rich n so enjoy their life...
i believe tat my family did not do any bad things. y our life must be so hard...i really feel so unfair.. i really feel i so unlucky... wat i wan always cant get.... :(

i realize that even how good ur result are and without money is no use, if u got money u will have everything, even ur result not good u still got chance to go others country n study without worry.haiz...

i duno wat i can do...i noe am lazy, but i just cant change... haiz...
if before nov i still cant get any internship job, i think i really will fail my this semester ba...

:'(